Just some 40 plus hours ago, I was freaking out. nausea, caffeine, papers, frantic scribbling. I'm not going to touch a single energy drink till June after I finish the last can of rip-it in my fridge. two more papers to the end, and i can see myself frantically memorizing statistical formulas the whole of tomorrow, dropping at packard to see a house at 1 (maybe) and then heading for 402 exams at 6. i'll just study after that till 8am. yea man... all the way!
So I'm still in a dilemma as to what I wanna major here at the UofM. Is it gonna be BSc Econ and BSc CompSci, or , BSc Econ, BSc Financial Mathematics and Minor in Computer Science. The latter sure sounds more impressive and im gonna need to do around 15 less credits. Really in a dilemma =(
I actually did a cost-benefit analysis on an A4 paper. something like what I did before deciding to come here to the UofM rather than studying for an LLB at NUS. Seems like the Econ Math Compsci combination is more gratifying. problem is, I dont really know if I wanna major in maths or if I am even interested in it at all... HOW??
anyhow, these were the verses from Sunday's sermon
2 Cor 5:11-15
"Knowing, therefore, the terror of the Lord, we persuade men; but we are well known to God, and I also trust are well known in your consciences. For we do not commend ourselves again to you, but give you opportunity to boast on our behalf, that you may have an answer for those who boast in appearance and not in heart. For if we are beside ourselves, it is for God; or if we are of sound mind, it is for you. For the love of Christ compels us, because we judge thus; that if One died for all, then all died and He died for all, that those who live should live no longer for themselves, but for Him who died for them and rose again."
So today was a relaxing day... was mostly at home. studied the whole of last night, went for a review, then met Jean on South U and had dinner at Nothai.
Was flipping through a book Daryl gave me before I left for UM, and here's something really good:
"Using the name of Jesus in prayer does not mean I can ask for and receive anything I desire, except where my desires are conformed to the desires of Christ. In other words, I cannot simply attach a religious postscript, 'in Jesus' name,' at the end of a selfish prayer and expect to always be answered. No. Not until our hearts become purely motivated with Christ's purposes will our prayers return empowered with heaven's resources."
"And whatever you ask in My name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask Me anything in My name, I will do it"
"I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. FOR TO ME, TO LIVE IS CHRIST AND TO DIE IS GAIN. If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do no know! I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith, so that through my being with you again your joy in Christ Jesus will overflow on account of me."
Great stuff.. i did a little research on that and found out what to live is Christ means. whatever we do, it is for Jesus. He is our Savior, our righteousness, our motivation and sustenance. TO wake up in the morning and know that he is my source of strength and he is working through me. To have trust in Christ and to be in perfect contentment. so, Christ is my everything.
To live is Christ.
Gosh, i have been awake from 7pm yesterday. so that's 27plus hours! kinda insane eh? the mad last few weeks to the finals...well, i sure am gonna miss the college experience when I graduate.
So i went for Seniors day yesterday but didnt go to the house party. guess i should keep it this way. was playing dota most of last night before church service.
let me recall..i collapsed into a slumber on friday night at around 1am because I was up most of Thursday to Friday. Phew! what a busy week. hope next week will be more manageable.
To live is Christ! press on... for Stanford... for God, for my family.. for the future!
v.7 "Instead of your shame you shall have double honor, And instead of confusion they shall rejoice in their portion. Therefore in their land they shall possess double; Everlasting joy shall be theirs."
Gosh. this is really powerful. THIS is God's plan for me. To break me down so that I may glorify him even more.
Heard this verse twice in 2 days!
ISAIAH 61:1-3 "The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon Me, Because the LORD has anointed Me To preach good tidings to the poor; He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, To proclaim liberty to the captives, And the opening of the prison to those who are bound; To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, And the day of vengeance of our God; To comfort all who mourn, To console those who mourn in Zion, To give them beauty for ashes, The oil of joy for mourning, The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness, The planting of the LORD, that He may be glorified."