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Tuesday, March 25, 2008

everyday has enough to worry about itself. we need not fear about the future because the Lord will take care of that. I guess I have to learn how to dwell in the present and prepare myself for God's purpose for me in the weeks to come.

To seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

Matthew 6:25-34

25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

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Monday, March 24, 2008

Mark 8:34-38
"Whoever desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross and follow Me. For whover desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake and the gospel's will save it. For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul? For whoever is ashamed of Me and My words in this adulterous and sinful generation, of him the Son of Man also will be ashamed when He comes in the glory of His Father with the holy angels."

posted by iambrianfu [ 3:08 PM ] |

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Wow. my second post ever in the U of M.

I guess im writing because there's some out-poring within me. like a fountain welling inside. Actually not exactly a fountain la... but i'm just trying to be imaginative =)

John 4:13-14
"Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life."

How apt, how apt.. i was just watching the Gospel of John a couple of days ago.

It's Easter now. Easter 2008. I think it's the most eventful Easter I've ever had since becoming a Christian. Or should I say the most eventful Easter I've ever had.
A couple of us in Anchored got together to bring about an Easter celebration to the non-Christian Singaporeans in our community. Was involved in some of the coordinating and publicity for the event. Havent really done anything like this for a long time eh.. reminds me of JC days where i was always involved in planning or organizing something. And this time, it was for a cause that i really wanted to put my effort in. Spreading the Gospel.. it felt really good
The people who came today were pretty open to the message, and woah.. hims and kianleong did good jobs with the talk and games. could really see the heart of God shining through them. really enjoy the community and working together to spread God's message. Hope we have more chances to do things like that. And i pray that I will not draw away from God in the coming weeks before term ends.

Another thing, a friend of mine recently declared himself an atheist. I got really discouraged at first. But then i pulled myself together. And got totally motivated to try harder. I don't know God's plan for him. But I know that God wants me to reach out to him so that is what I must do. To be honest, I really want to reach out to my friend, because I prayed about it before, and it dawned upon me that if I could spread the message to my friends. God could use me even more, to spread the message to my parents and siblings. How Great is that!

I really dont know what God's plan is for me in the long term. Am i gonna work in Oracle for a long time? What would my Christian walk be like during my stint there? Would I be drawing closer and building up myself more to glorify him. Have really been thinking over these questions every day. I keep praying over it.
Maybe I should pray how my Christian walk will be like Fall 08. With EECS courses and heavy programming coming up. I dont know if I will strong enough to help myself, let alone spread God's message. Fall 07 really taught me lots of lesson. It's almost like when I draw away from him, he uses the sorrows of the past to remind me that i'm going astray. like the head-tightening thing the monkey God wears.

Hope for more revelation from him. And that i may really enjoy Easter service later. All set for a tough week ahead! but with God with me, nothing is impossible!

posted by iambrianfu [ 2:00 PM ] |

Friday, March 14, 2008

dear blog

i just started to read the last couple of entries. i dont know how i used to post articles, but i guess i've grown quite a bit since then. i just get this sensing that my view of various issues has really changed dramatically in a matter of a year or so. is this how growing is supposed to be? realizing how child-like you were just a while ago.. i just pray for God's direction in my life.

so how does a blog stay relevant?

imo, it doesnt..i also think that the team at facebook has to be really capable. handling the issue of privacy, catering to the needs of different markets while at the same time remaining popular. a blog is really too public. if you're just some secondary school kid whom no one want to read about, then maybe that's fine. but as you progress in life and you realize that what you say or do affects the perception of people around you.. then that's not fine. the same piece of information can be viewed very differently by two different people in different settings. As a matter of fact, in order to stay out of trouble, one should needlessly be revealing too much information to others. This i learnt in uni.. like, when someone asks you out, you dont go around telling other people about it because people may feel hurt about not being called, or that the person who invited you out doesnt really wish to invite someone else. well.. i think thats a little way-off what im trying to say here. just something that's relevant in my setting here at the UofM.

then again, i'll be a hypocrite to be actually saying this and still writing. guess i just have an urge to pen down some thoughts. so dont be hard on me..

I miss my parents, family and especially Dean. it's not like the deep prolonged sense of longing kind of 'miss'. just a warm feeling of fond memories. really sad that i cant play a direct part in Dean's growing years given that im so far away here in Michigan. I did write him an email the other day. lets see where it goes. really hope that he opens up to me so that i can advise him on the possible pitfalls in my growing years and hopefully, he'd be able to avoid them.

I'd like to devote a bit of the next part to my spiritual life.

Really feel that God has been dropping me subtle hints about what he plans for me. I came to a conclusion that you can't be a lukewarm Christian in order to be a good one. You really have to believe. Why do i say so.?

when it comes to the actual testing of your faith. Say here in the UofM where im stressed out about schoolwork. Someone asks me for a favor, and im really not in the mood of helping .its not that im mean or what. i really cant reach the standards of some really zai people around. so i have to overcome this barrier and still want to do good. to come to attain a level of Christ-likeness when it's so difficult. it's so easy to give up trying to be a good person. one might think... just be so-so, dont be evil can already la! i dont really have an answer for that.

im really sensitive too.. (ok this is really a very bad information to reveal to the public given the un-needed proliferation of information this medium does.. hrmmm kind of reminds me of pple writing in their blogs about 'unwanted eyes'..hehh.. if they really dont want these eyes.. why write in the first place. so they write because they seek the 'unwanted eyes' . ok thats going off tangent a litte) what people do affects me. does tht mean i am a weak person... i dont know..

anyway, i just felt like i dont feel like writing anymore though writing this little chunk here kinda reminds me of Slavic 151 and Arthur wong.. ahaa

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