i didnt go to work today. and it was really hectic trying to obtain for myself a piece of MC that says 'Free from duty from 18/4/05 to 18/4/05' and not 'Fit for light duty from 18/4/05 to 18/4/05'..
anyway, i wont go into the details. im afraid the MSD may come looking to arrest me for malingering whilst on national duty.

i get kinda paranoid when there's news about the controversy surrounding PSC scholars 'accidentally' talking ill about other races in their blog. what happens if something bad befalls me?

its around 5.30 pm now. and im going to bedok later to give chemistry tuition to a sec4 boy. so im malingering and moonlighting. i should be shot!
its strange how i suddenly get so many tuition lobangs lately. all the agencies have been calling me nearly at least once a day, for the past week. ive spoken to quite a number of parents and ive got two students already. And i havent really started putting up the stupid self-advertisement yet.
nevermind then, its great how 4As get you plenty of students.. hahaa

i should start selling my students
any one wants some?

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so i just switched on the tv a while ago. and the casino is on! yay. like i didnt know. if you take a look at the bids. genting is offering up to twice the amount the next best bidder offered. guess why? those bored aunties are not going up genting no more. they're staying in singapore for the roulettes.

the thing is... we cant sit back and watch. we've got to grow with our neighbours. we've got to build formula 1 racing tracks too! i cant see why anybody would want to visit singapore otherwise. singapore is so boring. there's only sentosa and the zoo. how can we compare ourselves with (i quote) 'sakura from japan and the ice sculptures from harbin'

singapore has a dearth of attractions. singapore is dead. singapore ought to be shot..

we should elect a pope!

posted by iambrianfu [ 5:12 PM ] |

reading the article on straits times, i do get a few thoughts..

singapore is quite a quasi-meritocratic&plutocratic system after all. sounds contradicting?

i like to hear stories about rich people and how they pass down their assets to their sons. makes me feel like im in a dream like fantasy. somthing like.. i do well in school, i go abroad in a good university, come back with honours and masters and sit on top of a hierarchical structure that their father carved out for them. so lets say its me. im put on a throne. i make lots of friends, and i know all the corporate big wigs. i hobnob with the rich and famous in fancy ballrooms with cocktail parties every evening. i dont have to be outstanding.. i just have to be good, not excellent. and no one can say a thing about me.

but im still dreaming.

my father had the chance though. he came back with a degree, and was given a company to lead. what a chance. i would revel in such an opportunity. but my pops is not a businessman by nature. we all have our character traits, and my pops is the type of guy with a gregarious attitude who would do fairly well working in a large multinational company or statutory board for twenty years, climbing slowly in position(reminding me of the army, where they generals climb rank after rank from a Lta to a major to a colonel, and there they are with a good comfortable sum to tide over retirement), and given the prerogrative by his boss, accumulate hefty pay cheques and luxurious bonuses over the years. but my pops became the boss which was the means to the end. and he didnt do very well..
My pops was SACKED by his bigger boss. which is my grandpops. and while the old man cries in his sleep every night (not literally) for not having a suitable heir, an aspiring scion of the very same blood, is emerging.
so my grandpops is waiting to see me grow. but my grandpops learnt his lessoned that meritocracy is way to go and nepotism weakens the constitution of The Vatican in venice.

but hell. i dont want to inherit such an entreched system not full of my ideas and myself. i want me me me. a whole corporate infrastructure saying Me, and my big name inscribed on the walls painted in Red size 30 Arial, Bold.

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i have three colleagues (NSF) in my section. two of them are psc scholars and the other one, who seems quite a cocky full Lta(who does nothing at all everyday) studied abroad too. i know he's not a scholar, and he doesnt look fit, commanding or anywhere impressive to deserve a shiny two bar. oh by the way, i dont think much of scholars. they seem so celestial when i was in sec school.. like '' wow, you damn impressive president scholar! did u just walk out of the prime minister's office?" ok so those were my early misconceptions. scholars lead the same life as the others, they just have to work longer and harder and they cant quit any lunch time. they are stuck! seriously, that is my impression now.
so coming back to that so-full-of-himself-Lta.
guess what??

He is Mr Lee Kuan Yew's grand Nephew.

sometimes talking about it cant create the effect of having seen it or feel the response of how people working around him feel. i sit around in my chair, twiddling around my pencil holding warren fernandez's political book.. (anyway, tts my good psc friends hobby.. reading books about singapore) and the first thoughts that came to my mine other than our prime minister's distant nephew appearing so irksome to me, was the word - Power. power and wealth and creating singapore is a tremendous thing to have done. these are the micro elites who hold the drawstrings of our country and eclipse the nation with the swipe of the hand.
mine colleague is going to ORD and be an integral part the 'helm' of TIBS. well, his grandmum owns it right.

so my politically sensitive remark:

they create the rules and bend it to accomodate their 'deserved' needs to hold power and stay in control. witness the preponderance of wealth and power among the young'uns. Lee : let them grow and lead our land. this land was found by me, Lee and (solely)I, cannot depend on others to protect it for Me. stand up for singapore. I ADMIT that my land has a communist nuance. But it is absolutely necessary for me to do that to consolidate power and create an economic and social Powerhouse in this country for everyone to enjoy.

if i made SBS, i can make TIBS too. its to promote 'competition' you know. its to keep us on our toes.

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ok, i am sorry. deeply sorry about my remarks.

we are meritocratic because unless you are above the normal threshold classifying you as 'rich', given that your son is not up to standard, your company CAN go down to the bottom in just one or two generations. we dont usually see rich family business continuing unless the children are rather capable. so only if your pockets are three feets long, your son and grandsons, and their sons and grandsons can revel in your comfortable richness for a long time to come.
(reminds me of rich hongkees with the initials LKS being able to pass their wealth down ten generations, and still having spare to purchase combat rations for the 3rd, 6th, and 9th division of our SAF, for 99 years)

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im really tired.
it was a fun day having a brach outing and eating buffet with my colleagues

posted by iambrianfu [ 2:12 AM ] |

dear blog. its 2am but i cant sleep yet. i have a problem with sleeping past 2.00.
i can feel ulcers popping out near the back of my molars. i had two tablets of vitamin C pills today. im on pills. its so unfair, i still have ulcers. i hate ulcers. they plague me like the locust. albert and dean dont have ulcers. clara rarely has ulcers.. i have ulcers everyday if i dont eat my vitamin Cs. otherwise, i have them just a couple of time every month.

i have low blood count.
its not fair.
albert and dean dont have low blood count.
they have fully functional haemoglobin.
clara has the rare giddy spells.
i have them 24/7 when i spend more than 24hours at home.
i hate giddy spells.
they make me feel ill.

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i think i am rearing some kind of trojan horse in my computer. im really sure there's a virus of some sorts. the fonts im typing with now look so enormous. i think they're of a size 18 on microsoft words. sometimes, when i click on google, the search results appear in roughly size 24. thats madness. its huge!

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whilst im not a computer boy. i have begun on an adventure learning how to work with computers more efficiently. i am bringing a book titled 'visual basics 6' to office on tuesday. im bringing it to office, thats for sure. whether im gonna read it is another thing.
maybe, on some fine day, i will know what is wrong with my laptop. i wll be able to minimize the size of my fonts from a size 18 to 10.
that would be nice.

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im looking for students now. i just typed out some stuff. im pasting it around the neighbour hood. i actual design is really cool. but unfortunately, dear blog cant show my beautifully designed wordart. anyway, it reads:

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my chinese is horrible. i just know it. i am going to ask my pops to rewrite the chinese part for me. it sounds quite dumb now.

my chinese is horrible. i cant write a simple sentence without using the dictionary. but unlike most people who proclaim that their 'chinese is horrible', i am different. i am deeply ashamed by the fact that my chinese language proficiency is just not there. sometimes, i would think that having poor chinese standards is not my fault. i dont have a backing in chinese. no one speaks chinese at home! who shalt command me to have good chinese?

so its not my fault.

posted by iambrianfu [ 1:51 AM ] |

did you fantasia barino on channel 5 ?
i was on my way back from church and it had been a nice and eventful day with the dreamy evening fog hanging low in the night sky and suddenly, my eyeaballs nearly popped out like golf balls shot right out of their sockets by fully loaded m16 rifles. It was a sight to remember. i saw this blackie on tv mobile screaming like a chicken.. arms flailing, hopping around like playboy bunny having gone for plastic surgery cum reverse michael jackson skin therapy. How could that be American Idol. America.. the America where I am going to live my american dream. she might as well be the American Shame or American Hung'. heh

i cannot believe that i know so much of american idol. i havent believe in watching reality tv but i really cannot NOT find the time to watch tv everyday, giving that i work at mindef and knock off at 5.30 (though usually not on time, maybe 10 minutes plus minus). But anyway, the lifestyle is a lil' slightly different from those beret bearing comrades from sispec and ocs (read Sleeping-in-silence-plus-ensuring-comfort and outrageous-comfort&-slackness).
ok.. so i DO watch american idol. i like two of them. one black and one white. the blonde girl with the curly hair and the black vonzell. if she was white, she would be god damn happening. someone give her a 360-reverse-fantasiabarino-michaeljackson-skin-therapy.

back to today's eventful day.
i was so busy with the industry of propaganda that i hardly realise my whole morning had gone in a flash. it was quite a good feeling, cuz u didnt have to sit there forcing my eyes open. i was enganging myself! i was involved in cogent and incisive arguments with my colleagues on our NE project. certainly reminds me of jc days where i would always be involved in planning this shit and that. after all, i enjoy organizing things, being the man at the helm, being the man implementing the changes, being the man in control.
today, i also mastered microsoft excel. i spent the rest of the afternoon fiddling around with flash. which is also kinda cool cuz i know i will soon be able to create my own version of happy tree friends!
then, church was really very nice today..
ok.. im going to sleep

posted by iambrianfu [ 11:50 PM ] |

I was Struggling to keep awake today. when the boss is gone and you are staring at the computer screen, your eyes seem heavy and you long for kopi. and then you realise that you are too lazy to make or buy kopi, and under the hum of the air-condition and the mutterings and the flippings of paper in the background...

you're asleep.

and then you hear someone walk pass.
shit. gotta stay awake.

i just learnt micro excel today. im going to dig up a thick excel book later so tt i can read it in office tomorrow. i have my new laptop with wireless connection in office . thats quite cool. no one else has internet except meee.

posted by iambrianfu [ 10:51 PM ] |

i am not quite a computer guy. in fact, i am a very hopeless computer guy. i often get very upset when the computer cant start, or when the network cable registers 'low frequency' and 'unable to load webpage' when the cable is obviously screwed so tightly in. just look at my pathetic website and you can see that the stupid large picture has been missing (AWOL) for years and i havent been bothered or able or have been confident to change it or delete it or something of that sort. the dumb nedstat thingy is always in the wrong time and i cant be sure how to amend it.

i've decided that i am going to read HTML. HOORAY!
i am slow and lousy and the whole world knows html except me.

anyway, i have gotten to know a computer guy in my office. i was quite sure that he was a computer guy at first sight because he was white, messy hair, munching biscuits in front of a computer screen, fast fingers, quick mouse clicking skills (like riliang), and so on and so forth. I am quite a bored guy in office because i usually have ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to do for the whole day, and i often probe to his table to looksy looksy around. computer guys are neat and they read a lot. they are proud of the computer achievements they have. my computer guy has a laminated straits times article about himself featured in it. it says something like 'talented youngster' or 'bright student' that is probably praising him for helping Bill Gates come up with Microsoft. or whatever...

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posted by iambrianfu [ 1:26 AM ] |